the ultimanium...

in the end its still the same there was not much point speaking to her. the result is still retention.
it's ok i guess since i was already mentally prepared for this. well life is a harsh reality and we must learn to face it no matter what the result is and make the best use of it.

anyway on a lighter note.
i went to vivo jus now to chill out after all that talking with her. and i basically met 2 ppl i knoe, both in tjc.(i think it became TJ's latest hang out coz the place is filled with them) one is weilin frm 1st 3 months and the other is a guy whom i think is called shawn frm cat high. ( basically he is this guy who knows me and i dun know him. almost evryone in my lvl know me somehow or rather so there will be this guy who come up to u and say hi and u have no idea who he is) so weird... this happened to me so many times esp when i am in j8 or some random place. vivo is not really that great to me. i think it is like MS in terms of design and size. it was like rows and rows of apparel shopsand restaurants with a few other random shops here and there. so if u were a person like me who nv like shopping for clothes, there is basically nothing much for u to do.

well after all that mumbo jumbo i finally feel at ease with myself. if they insist on retaining me, then i'll accept the challenge... lol

well to those ppl who feel sad bout it, thanks for everything. if ya still feel bad bout it, just do me a favor and just act the way it was b4 all the release of results. haha

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

"the dark world" that was the title that melvin gave me to do for chinese compo.

hmmm basically what i wrote ( in chinese, of course) was...

ur smiles bring warmth and hope to this world, ur every sentence brings joy to the people around u. blah blah ... ( did not manage to continue coz we went for lunch and i lost interest) well it suppose to be something like the world w/o that person will be the dark world...that person will be of course ....

MY MUM

lol i know who u r thinking of but u r wrong.... haha

anyway today we came to sch to do pw. but actually all we did was play bball and for me watch 4 ep of deathnote. there was absolutely nothing substantial done today. well what can u say after all it's a holiday and no one likes pw.

tmr will really be a dark day where i find out what will really happen to me next yr

wish me luck man this is the deciding factor...
by the way chinese a level's in 4 days time and i've not done much. i guess i better start now. cya

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

today all i can say is gd bye to my class. i am almost confirmed retained. dun bother trying to console me or anything, just be urselves and treat me as a fren not a classmate... i guess i will just give it all i got for the OP and chinese that's all i can do for now. and though i hate to say this, but here comes orientation 1 all over again zzz. so while u guys worry bout a levels next yr i worry to promote again. just pray i dun get gopal and j poh all over again if not seriously gg.

so as for now gd bye and gd luck to those who just got promoted.

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

believe me it aint my voice.

RE : fri 20 oct

watched death note yesterday.

all i can say is brilliant!
disclaimer : may have some spoiler so dun read this paragraph if u wanna know bout the show


basically is bout this law college student called Light who felt that certain criminals are not getting what they deserve even through laws... so he happen to be walking home one night after confirming for himself that a murderer walked away scot- free though he indeed killed a girl blah blah. anyway Light was walking home, and he found this book on the floor... DEATH-NOTE
The human whose name is written in this note shall die.
the rules of the book :
This note will not take effect unless the writer has the subject's face in their mind when writing his/her name. Therefore, people sharing the same name will not be affected.
If the cause of death is written within 40 seconds of writing the subject's name, it will happen.
If the cause of death is not specified, the subject will simply die of a heart attack.
After writing the cause of death, the details of the death should be written in the next 6 minutes and 40 seconds.

imagine if u had the book, what would u do? play God and stand in the name of ur so called justice? how scary would such a world be. let's say i dun like u, so i write ur name in the book and u die.... no evidence no clue when or where u are gonna die or even who killed u. such a world will be shrouded in fear. in fear of the ppl u offend....

man its a good show that is witty and deceptive.

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

the living nightmare.
the convo i had with borne...


7:44:52 PM
stay clear.
dude

7:45:14 PM
stay clear.
real roots means the x- coordinates right?

7:46:24 PM
-rudi-
?

7:46:57 PM
-rudi-
one pt touch the x axis

7:47:14 PM
stay clear.
like when two graphs intersect right

7:47:31 PM
stay clear.
they ask got how many +ve and -ve real roots

7:47:42 PM
-rudi-
is see the x- cooridnates of theintersection huh?

7:47:54 PM
-rudi-
yeh

7:47:57 PM
stay clear.
kk

7:47:58 PM
stay clear.
thz

7:48:04 PM
-rudi-
what are u doing?

7:48:11 PM
stay clear.
graphing xD

7:48:16 PM
-rudi-
huh

7:48:29 PM
-rudi-
i tot we doing maclaurin

7:48:33 PM
stay clear.
ya lah

7:48:36 PM
stay clear.
i do le mah

7:48:46 PM
-rudi-
er then why graphing?

7:49:00 PM
stay clear.
revision?

7:49:05 PM
-rudi-
wth

7:49:09 PM
stay clear.
lol

7:49:09 PM
-rudi-
so fast

7:49:17 PM
stay clear.
no time le lah brother

7:49:27 PM
stay clear.
i know like zit lah

7:49:31 PM
stay clear.
4 big subs

7:49:37 PM
stay clear.
1 month in dec not enough one

7:49:44 PM
-rudi-
err we just finished promos rite

7:49:51 PM
stay clear.
not really

7:49:54 PM
-rudi-
or has it not yet begun

7:49:56 PM
stay clear.
two weeks liao

7:50:00 PM
-rudi-
am i in a dream

7:50:00 PM
stay clear.
lol

7:50:07 PM
-rudi-
a really bad one

7:50:12 PM
stay clear.
hahaha

7:50:17 PM
stay clear.
you need not do what

7:50:18 PM
stay clear.
chey

7:50:20 PM
-rudi-
seriously

7:50:24 PM
stay clear.
ya

7:50:37 PM
-rudi-
u really so bored?

7:50:59 PM
stay clear.
erm

7:51:04 PM
stay clear.
is desperation lah

7:51:13 PM
-rudi-
wth

7:51:14 PM
stay clear.
promos my maths suck can

7:51:23 PM
-rudi-
omg

7:51:26 PM
-rudi-
mugger

7:51:31 PM
stay clear.
i admit

7:51:32 PM
stay clear.
lol

7:51:39 PM
stay clear.
i have tuition lah

7:51:39 PM
-rudi-
nv have i seen such behavior

7:51:42 PM
stay clear.
have still so suck

7:51:47 PM
stay clear.
i should go fan xing

7:51:48 PM
stay clear.
lol

7:52:03 PM
-rudi-
so is that ur tuition work or what

7:52:18 PM
stay clear.
not really

7:52:22 PM
stay clear.
my tuition no hwk de

7:52:42 PM
-rudi-
yeh but is ur tuition like gg through this topic

7:52:51 PM
stay clear.
i doubt so

7:52:56 PM
stay clear.
more reason to do it now

7:52:59 PM
-rudi-
ok...


while borne was mugging i was watching pirates of the carribean and da vinci code ... and i shld be the one that is more worried than him.

ok then i guess i gotta start tmr. seriously this has nv happen b4 in my life. i've nv seen a person who starts mugging 2 weeks after the end of year exams.

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

nothing much happen during the past few days other than pw till easily 9+ pm.

the only dumb thing was...

jelly jelly
fish fish
kangaroo kangaroo
cat cat
rabbit rabbit
gori(lla) gori(lla)
snake snake

driver driver
dancer dancer
school boy school boy
soldier soldier
barber barber
drummer drummer
.
.
.
.

yah u get the idea... the end result of the 2 forfeits basically is...

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

argh so tired... just swam like 50 laps in the pool during trng. imagine swimming 50 laps or about 2.4km. usually i take bout 10min to run 2.4km and now i swim at easily 5 times longer.

i dunno why but i feel utterly drained and exhausted. this is not because of trng. since this morn i have been finding evry opportunity to sleep. b4 assembly. during maths and gp. on every bus ride. haiz i think i am seriously sick of school life and every thing related to it... but then again that was me like 5yrs ago.



oh this is dedicated to brandon and chee siong.
BRANDON LIKES....
elaine
poh xian
liu ying

AND CHEESIONG LIKES...
who else but SHONA
katherine
liuying

well u sabo me first so here u go lol

there are 2 types of ppl in the world. one of them is the type who believes in someone up there looking after them. the other group are those that believe in luck and coincidences... however what is there is no such thing as coincidence

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

okay, some pw stuff to do,
open the wr file.
hmmm why's this section so unfamiliar.
what's this doing here.
scroll scroll.ctrl-c, ctrl-v, backspace, space, space, backspace.
oh wait better check the content page.
hmmm, seems to be correct.
now let's see i have to do.
no i don't really get what i'm supposed to do.
isn't everything here already.
ok i'll do some edits.
grab some relevant book.
hmm contradictions between book and data.
highlight, backspace.
taptaptap.taptaptap.
oh wait.
then these parts will be wrong too.
teachers won't look up research materials anyway.
ctrl-z, ctrl-z, ctrl-z.
ok i'll add more info.
taptaptaptap.no that doesn't sound right.
highlight, backspace.maybe add some better words here and there.
tools>thesaurus.click, click.no, doesn't fit in.ctrl-z. ctrl-y?
no, still ctrl-z.
oh a random flash of inspiration!
taptaptaptaptaptaptaptaptaptap flurry.
eh.no that's only half correct.
backspace, backspace.
need to substantiate.
flip, flip.book doesn't say anything.
maybe i'll just rephrase.
how do i rephrase this.
think, think.
aha. reverse the sentence.highlight, backspace.oops. ctrl-z.highligt, backspace.
no doesn't look right.ctrl-z.the paragraph will be better without it.
oh nevermind i'll move on to another section.
rinse. repeat.


turned out like a freeverse poem.

had trng yseterday...
what is the point of having a carrot and stick method during trng? lemme ans that for u, its to make sure evryone puts in the best at trng and to increase the competitive level of the game. so if the coach says 50 push ups to the loser of the competition while the winner dun have to do, naturally the 2 competitors will fight it out. so anyway i won 2 out of 2 rounds and tot i did not have to do any push-ups or punishments... but nooo i was wrong. apparently someone does not think so. " what is team spirit?" hah to him, team spirit is the winners doing the punishments with the losers so there u have it, frm zero push ups and sit ups to 100 each. wonderful, next time when he is around then i dun see the need to put in any effort in such races as if u lose u get to do push ups and if u win u still have to do. so what evr man what's the point of winning. this has nothing to do with team spirit at all. it is suppose to be a price the losers have to pay for their loss and a sort of prize for the rest who dun have to do. it aint about discipline anymore...

anyway psi apparently went up to 98 pts as of 3pm today but i seriously doubt it coz the usual city view that can be seen frm my window is gone and it seems like the view i wld get if the psi is at 150.

haiz it had better increase to such a high lvl that i dun need to go to sch tmr to recieve the results for promos i know i will not pass. i had a dream saying i got 13/30 for maths last nite lol yah i know it suppose to be 100 instead of 30 but it is a sign....

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

random pics
























run for ur lives...


the ultimate combo... 8km run in about 40min then 90 sit-ups. then pw for 2h to realise that we need to camp at someone's place for the weekend to finish the wr which can nv be perfect, then 20 scoops of ice cream in a day. i think i'm gonna be sick soon man. sick of school and its nonsense and sick of ice cream for the next couple of weeks.

today's open house was a long and crappy day. basically the main crowd of ppl was not chung cheng ppl, neither was it peichai or zhonghua, it was... NYJC J1 students lol. apparently many ppl were smart enough not to come here. the highlights was mainly the carrie and shan wee (the 2 98.7 fm dj ppl came) sia lah and shan wee is seriously tall. i'm only like reaching his nose lol
well anyway they came to buy our ice-cream and brought along the whole gang of fans too. anyway shan wee gave us some poster for this concert thing and after the whole day was over i wanted to burn the darn thing away for some reason or another all till someone decided to snatch it away, crumple and tear it all in the name of recycling. so obviously digrunted i went after the person and just when i was about to grab him, he elbowed me so that made me pissed off. seriously pissed off. so after giving chase for a while more that person realise he can't out run me so he went to a table near some teachers... and soon after he disappeared.

I TELL U HE HAD BETTER PUT THAT DUMB POSTER IN THE RECYCLING BOX OR ELSE ...

i mean i am not pissed off about the poster. it was more of the wth does it have to do if i wanna burn it up. i mean unless if it is in prestine condition and u seriously wanted it then fine but if it is in a lump of !@#$ and evryone wanna burn it dun just snatch the dumb thing away like a kid and claim u wanna recycle it.

ok nvm bout what i just said but hopefully it better not happen again coz i hate ppl who hide behind ppl with authority and do stuff that is utterly nonsensical.

9h till trng tmr; 3 days to hand in wr including the remainder of today; 3 days till we receive our results; weeks more till vertical marathon(73 storeys) ; 1 month till OP; 2 months till standard chartered half marathon. isn't this just great.

haha gd nite and God bless his soul.

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

poh boon dancing.

lol

Haha many things happen these 2 days. 1stly yesterday we had this dialogue session with our dear uncle kwek about whether students like us shld be allowed to express our views to the press. So basically the 2 legendary speakers in the sch came up to gave their thoughts bout it. Well for those who dunno bout it they are poh boon and Benjamin chia. Benjamin was the one that went to argue rudely with a government official during one of the talks. Basically he went up to the guy and try to talk politics to the guy. And his security tried to get him to stop but he resisted. And well poh boon is… ah forget it watch the video on the prev entry to see who he is or at least how he dance lol.[ By the way this was taken during teacher’s day/ ace’s day]

And well today we had this Indian rangsara thingy. Which is basically colored rice deco on the floor. Well we did a milky way pic. And basically I can say that I did almost nothing. Seriously… yy most of the planning with kaiwen and calina did most of it. However though it looked quite disgusting in the beginning in turned out quite well after that considering we got third. (haha jj u owe me 10 bucks. Who ask u make that dumb bet lol.)

Oh yeah we sold ice cream today man. We had this dumb advertisement during morn assembly then mrs wong apparently went up there and said we did not book a slot when earlier she mentioned that it was our turn to go up on the poldium. grr… then when we finally got up we basically had the word ice-cream spelled out and pasted on our back. So blah blah she blamed us for making a mistake which we did not and instead was her fault. I mean comon grow up man (not that u r not old enough) admit ur mistake and dun push the blame to others…
Anyway putting that aside, we made $280+ from today’s sales. Haha remarkable considering that the ice cream is no longer ice cream but cream alone lol apparently the fridge is spoilt so mp, daphne and mrs lim all went to settle with the dealer…. I think they see that we are kids then they bully us sia. I mean when mp called the guy he refused blatantly to do anything. Only when mrs lim used her smooth talk then the issue was settled. Haha way to go ppl.

Hey tmr is open house so for all those juniors reading this…. One word of advice…DUN COME. Lol till next time ppl remember to tag haha

Oh and a teaser to leave u thinking. Tell me when u find out.
A RIDDLE THAT'LL KILL YOUR BRAIN!
This is going to make you so MAD! There are three words in the English language that end in "gry". ONE is angry and the other is hungry. EveryONE knows what the third ONE means and what it stands for. EveryONE uses them everyday, and if you listened very carefully, I've given you the third word. What is it? _______gry?

oh yeah teachers read ur blog...
http://euniceee.blogspot.com/

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

argh pw makes us all go mad... wr from 11-9+ u can tell frm the effects my grp is suffering frm esp loyi and the word "damn". i know it aint suppose to be nice but she keeps on saying it for the kick of it. O.o

met borne on the bus while going to anna's house for pw. i stared at him and he stared at me. then after 5s then we recognised each other. well he like evry one else in class is also doing pw all thanks to mel's msg at 08:16:27 am this morn.

loyi who organised the entire pw thing later found out that she had pw today after seeing borne in the lab who told her. rofl. she forgotten she told us to come todae lol.

at 9 plus at nite we finally finished the pw and decided to teach loyi how to play MINESWEEPER haha.

yeah that's basically the highlights of the day. if u are wondering why i wrote this post in such a way. its because i accidentally refreshed the actual entry and it got deleted zzzz....

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

this is to reply borne's tag. and comon whty put me in this dumb thing its for GALS. which part of it do u not understand lol
anyway here goes....

1) Single, taken or crushing? single duh... no way am i gonna court trouble doing the rest. and comon if u have a crush on the person just say it dun be such a wimp and hide ur emotions (the most is that u get ditched =x )

2) Are you happy with your life now? oh yes very happy indeed as long as some of my wishes are granted now( ps look at the 3rd line of my wish list) now i'm not asking too much, am i?

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast? hmmm what he??? i'm in a guys sch for 4 yrs and u are telling me he???? i mean like i have not seen enough guys alr so pls make it a she instead lol

4) Have you ever been heart broken? singlehood is bliss and it has been this way for 17 yrs so of course not.haha

5) Do you believe that there are some circumstances, where cheating love is acceptable? aint that suppose to be a commited 2 way thing and not more than that? hey no matter what love it is it must be pure and innocent.

6) Would you take sumone back even if he cheats on you?i am not even gonna bother to answer

7) Have you ever talked about marriage to someone else before? no. nv tot that far but i just attended this church marriage seminar lol( it's for all to attend)

8) Do you want children?yeh

9) How many?two is a nice no. a girl and a guy pref haha dunno why but well ya...

10) Would you ever consider adoption? if u can't get a child of ur own then perhaps. well its better than seeing a child stuck in an orphanage the rest of their life while u wish for one of ur own.

11) If someone likes you now, what do you think is the best way for him to let you know his feelings?oh man it had better be a typo and be a she instead of a him. if not i'll tell him he can go to changi village loads of company there.

12) Do you enjoy getting into relationships? do i look like i have one in the first place?

13) Do you believe in love at first sight?no. unless if i am in fairytale land.

14) Do you believe you can change someone? well yah even ppl like jj changed frm anti christ to all hogc fan club.

15) If you could get married somewhere, where would it be? on some wonderful beach where u dun need to think of anything else

16) Do you give in easily when you are fighting? well depends on what u are fighting for. if its for ur values or life then of course not.

17) Do you have feelings for someone right now?yeah. i feel so messed up with the ppl around me and the things happening lately

18) Do you ever wished that you could have had someone but you messed it up?well no crushes man

19) Have you ever broken a heart?well i dun think so anyway esp if it is a girl then i wld not even dare. lol they can be monsters to u if u offend them. anyway sry if i had broken any of ur hearts =)

20) If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you are deeply in love with, what would you do? this is so wrong i aint gay and no dun say i came frm cat high and assume that i must be one

21) Are you missing anyone right now?nope.

22) Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs. Write down their names in the list below

1.cheryl
2.loyi
3.xinchu
4.ren kai
5.argh can't think of anyone else who have not done it yet.

great finally done. wasted like 15min of my time typing this messed up post.

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

oh man the ache in my back and shoulders lol. man what is this world getting into. the PSI is like 150 and we are still having trng. if i ask u how many ppl is a 2-man boat suppose to seat, u would prob be saying something like 2 people lah DUH, but our dear coach apparently dun think so. he made us row 8km in that wretched T-2. haha so many strange yet coincidental things happen lately. the guy he rescued the wallet for some old lady was frm my church he was commended by the police during assembly and was in the papers. yah and he was featured in the bulletin.

anyway i realised that i have pass by jj, rk and borne's houses b4 i even know them. borne live near my uncle's house. jj lives near the place i collect my sch award thing. rk lives near my grandpa house. sia lah singapore is so small. this is seriously fate. who knows man maybe i've seen them b4 but just took them as strangers lol.

anyway i saw gaofan at j8 just now looking at jewellry sia.(jj u must have a deep pocket if u want this type of ppl rofl)

oh yeah and i went to church todae. so strange it felt like a calling u know. as in i did not say anything but the sermon was bout the thing that i was thinking of lately.

haha anyway cya for now

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

haha today is the 1st month since i have started blogging

anyway i just watch this service sermon on living out God's destiny. and it was then did i seriously went to think of what have i done over the past 17 years of my life. i mean so what if i went into EM1 in p4, scored 255 (+2 points due to HMT) and got 12 points for O levels. did i lead a meaningful life? i mean so what if i had accomplished all these things... in the end when a person lies in their deathbed, will they feel that they have made the past 70-80 yrs of their life worth all that pain and sacrifice?

In life there are many voices speaking to u.

the voice of criticism.
the voice of doubt.
the voice of selfishness.
the voice of limitation.

however there is one that we must all listen to, whether u are a believer or not...
THE VOICE OF FAITH
it is only through such a faith can we open the door to unlimited possibilities. lets not be tied down by insignificant battles over worldly issues but instead be true to ur heart and to the God u believe in. even if one does not believe in God, can u imagine what will happen if u lose faith in urself and the ppl around u? the world will be in a total mess. evry one has a pillar of strength so do u have one?

well enough of all that talk and time to go collect my $200 award, and then later meet up with borne and gang for pool and finally go dinner to celebrate the birthday boys birthday lol...sssshhhh big secret rofl (happy birthday to rk tm lebron and kaiwen ... sry if it is belated or in advance)

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

WAR!!!

the 2 warring factions has started their campaign. Heading one faction is Derick and gang( calina, puiyoke...), the neutral are tengming, renkai and edmund, the opposing side is... well the rest of the ppl in the class
(ps: not totally accurate hor and N.A. to ppl like yy jason and aloy....)

the rift had started a long time ago, as tensions rocket sky high, this situation is worsening as the days go by.

i dun wanna have a repeat of the scenario i suffered in sec 1-2 and well the agressor suffered worse though but that aint the point. the point is "The first casualty of war is innocence".

flashback time...
in sec 1 there was an idiot called shawn chen. he was well this fat and stumpy guy who went around calling ppl nicknames. well he did that to all the ppl in the class esp poor me.. anyway he went to the extent of drawing an entire comic strip about me and my nickname(dun bother asking what he called me) . ya and this soon spread to my classmates and then to my cca ppl then to the whole cohort then to well basically the whole sch even the juniors and their frens later on knew about it....
well anyway my class soon got sick of the teasing game so they decided to ostracise him instead. and there goes his pride and dignity and pretty much every thing. he landed frm the best class to the worst class in the level.

well morale of the story is no matter what u do in such cases, it is a lose-lose situation. so... dun start it or aggravate the situation now for it is nv gd for both parties.


so will there be bloodshed and tears in this class of mine will all depends on what we do now and in the future. let bygones be bygones

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

woooooooooppppeeeee

exams over but here comes pw
too bad for u guys who still having exams rofl anyway gd luck and hope u promote next yr lol

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

sk we were all talking bout mooncakes yesterday and now i got 6 boxes lying in my fridge....

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

on one extremely hazy afternoon, after 2 monstrous papers, a group of 17 year olds decided to relax at the nearby shopping mall called juntion 8.

after buying some stuff they decided to have a snack at the food court on the 4th floor. however, before all that happened, the 4 guys there were all hooked to a small little device that acts as a gaming device and a communication tool... the handphone...

so now imagine in ur heads. 4 guys and 2 girls sitting at the food court all playing with their phones like a bunch of 5 yr olds who just found a new game.... fine maybe it was just the 4 guys lol. namely jiajie borne melvin and myself. ps the girls namely meiping and daphne were still sane enough not to join us lol. dun ask why did we do it but i think its just exam stress or the lack of childhood

May your light shine...
in the darkness...